9/6/12

What element of nature would you choose as an emblem for yourself as a writer. Is this a symbol that you use when writing? Does the tone match your writing? Write using it as a metaphor.



My writing is as if the leaves are falling from their tree. As if the air we breathe starts becoming colder, more crisp. As if the air was full of the sounds of crows, cowering on the wires. Autumn. I do not know why, I do not know how. But as I write. A lot of times I imagine autumn. The time of decaying; death. I feel many of my writings have that tone. A low energy that is given off. A lot of times when I write I am feeling low inside. As if something is wrong. Could be something at school, at home, something going on with a friend. Those feelings are stored deep inside. When I write, they creep out. Slowly. Writing is an escape. A way to say what is needing, without anybody truly hearing. You can write what you are feeling. And simply delete it afterward. Nobody has to see it. Nobody has to read it. Nobody has to know. a secret. I sometimes wish that I could change the tone of my writings. Change the tone from being deep and heavy, to light and airy. I wish that my symbol of writing could be like the spring, rebirth, happiness. Or summer, to the heat and passion. But it is not. Its slow, paused. Its cold, and bitter, like as if winter were approaching. I feel my writing is stuck. Stuck in this sad melody. I want to break free. Write about life, and beauty. Happiness and love. Instead of sadness and death. But its easy for me to write, with autumn being my structure. Its familiar, something I know of well. Something I can relate to. Easily bring memories to paper. I need to find new memories to store. A new picture, thought, or feeling to flood through me. Through me, through my fingertips, through the keys, and onto the paper. A new story, and new story to share. A new story to read. A new story to begin.